An insightful, raw YA novel about a young photographer navigating toxic relationships and how they influence her identity.

Sixteen-year-old Arden Grey is struggling. Her mother has left their family, her father and her younger brother won’t talk about it, and a classmate, Tanner, keeps harassing her about her sexuality—which isn’t even public. (She knows she likes girls romantically, but she thinks she might be asexual.) At least she’s got her love of film photography and her best and only friend, Jamie, to help her cope. Then Jamie, who is trans, starts dating Caroline, and suddenly he isn’t so reliable. Arden’s insecurity about their friendship grows. She starts to wonder if she’s jealous or if Jamie’s relationship with Caroline is somehow unhealthy—and it makes her reconsider how much of her relationship with her absent mom wasn’t okay, too. Filled with big emotions, first loves, and characters navigating toxic relationships, Ray Stoeve’s honest and nuanced novel is about finding your place in the world and seeking out the love and community that you deserve.

Author’s note, with resources.

POTENTIALLY SENSITIVE AREAS

Language: Strong Language , Discrimination: Sexuality , Sexual Content: Mild Sexual Content/Themes , Drugs/Alcohol/Tobacco: Underage Use , Violence: Abuse Reference/Discussion , Drugs/Alcohol/Tobacco: Alcohol Abuse , Violence: Self-Harm Reference/Discussion , Violence: Suicide Reference/Discussion